Good news & how it makes you feel--

In the past few days we've been riding a positive wave of news when it comes to baby Jack. According to the ultrasound on Monday, the ultrasound tech could NOT see the sub chorionic hematoma anymore! That is amazing news as just two weeks ago it was still very noticeable up on the screen. It's almost too good to believe that it really might finally be gone after all of the bleeding, stress, and worry that it has caused us. It's nice to be able to cross that off the list. Additonally, I had my blood drawn earlier in the week and the good news there is that my platelet count was back up! I have an appointment with my hematologist in another two weeks so I'm sure he'll be happy to hear that and maybe I won't have to go back? I'm not sure. Maybe we'll keep continue to keep an eye on it. It's a weird thing when you get good news when you're pregnant after a loss like Timmy's. Are you excited about it? Sure. Do you breathe a little easier? Sure. But I'll be honest, it's only about a day or so. It's this strange mind game that as soon I feel like if I let go even just the smallllllest amount to relax a little bit then BAM I feel like I'm going to get hit with something again that could be possibly be wrong. Is that bad? No. It's just a self preservation thing at this point. This pregnancy has already been a wild and crazy ride. Not only because we're constantly anxious and scared but because there have also been so many complications already. I guess we're just waiting for the axe to drop and for the next thing to go wrong..I suppose in our minds it's easier to hope for the best but just expect the worst. Fingers crossed that we'll be proven wrong. If you know me, you know that in general I always like to be right. I'd love, love, to be wrong on the next 17-19 weeks or so. PLEASE. I'd gladly welcome the rest of this to be very, very boring until Jack gets here. Time will tell!